Happy New 2015 Year!!

Last year was a fight. Fight against my slavery to anxiety and depression. Fight against my slavery to my ego, against my will to do things I wanted, but what I wanted was wrong, I wanted to feed my ego. My ego didn’t get enough food, always wanted more and more. And I got sunk to my depression and anxiety, hurting myself, my family and my sorroundings.

I finally figured it myself, no one could actually tell me what was wrong in the first place. The reason I was keep feeding my ego was my thought I was not getting enough attention, I’m special, which is not, I’m suprerior, which is not. So I compencated by feeding myself with false thoughts and deeds. I got used to that in time, find myself lonely and anxious, climbing on trees, and watching the Baltic sea to relax myself as a child, then as an adult, a man with a family closing in my room, or oversleeping, being anxious on my free days with my family. My ego was fed, but I was not happy. I found another place to keep feeding my ego, by abusing my will, keep telling myself, that I’m right about doing whatever I keep doing about everything, thoughts, feelings, love and deeds.

To get out of this loop I had to find the initial cause, and correct my new action plan to get out of anxiety and depression. First I treated my anxiety by taking some pills and meditating, this relaxed me. When I was relaxed I could think, why I do what I do? Why I keep hurting myself and others by behaving like an egoist. The answer came from an article I read about anxious partners in relationship, who are closed in themselves – and then it hit my. I’m anxious, and I’m closed in myself. I need to open and stop feeding my ego, this is the solution. Once I realized that, new hope opened in me. I hope the next 2015 year would give me tools and strength to deal with my depression and anxiety. Be healthier again, happier and bring stability to me and my family in all aspects – because I deserve it.

Posted on 30 December '14 by , under Entries in English, Health, Депрессия. No Comments.

EFT – emotional freedom technique, how it related to CBT – cognitive behavioral therapy

Our life seems to be very fast during the past decades, we live to succeed and achieve until the age of 40, get as many deseases as possible, get as many stress as possible and eventually die from suffering… Why? Do we really have to choose to live and then die that way? The answer is in our hands.

What is EFT? Founded by Gary Craig, is a technique to perform two basic things – control your mind and help your body doing it. Actually what it does in real life is very silly, as one might catch another human doing it. The person stands in the middle of the street performing some strange ritual tappings on his eyes, fingers – saying to himself some strange sentences, humming some cheerful melody, performing that nicely, seems to other that he cannot be distracted at all. Then like nothing happened he continues to walk. How strange, the other guy thinks, what the hell was that? That is EFT.

What is beautiful about this technique that it combines three very deep and sophisticated approaches to heal the human being: Fix the feeling and automatic thought that you have which in Psychiatry called (CBT cognitive behavioral therapy), free your mind programming it to a new sentence with help of saying something to yourself lots of times, tap with fingers according to Chinese medicine accupuncture technique to specific points in your body. All this within 3-5 minutes of practice and you’re done. Some would say, this is total bullshit! Accupuntcure exists 2000 years and not many knows how and where to put a niddle, but tapping? Saying sentences to yourself? Fixing automatic thoughts? Well, it’s not a bullshit after all, I’ve tried it and it works. I read many books about CBT including the famous book by Albert Ellis (control your anxiety before it controls you), I know how CBT works, and it works fine, but you have to have lots of patience to succeed, what EFT does is helping you concentrate on CBT and therefore fixing two things in one method. It practically works very good.

Posted on 27 October '10 by , under Entries in English, Esoteric. No Comments.