Month: August 2010

Last day at Microsoft.com Israel

Well, tomorrow would be my last day at Microsoft.com Israel Hertzelya

Well, tomorrow would be my last day at Microsoft.com Israel Hertzelya, I worked there for 1 year and 1 month as a vendor through some company. Objectively looking – yes I learned some interesting stuff there, and got a broader view on things and how everything is done. But, I also learned how things should not be done, and not technically speaking. Success of a project, technically speaking is only 20%, 80% is people related and that’s where it all went wrong, but that’s a different story.

I cannot tell whether I’m happy, sad or renewed. I’m going to start working at new place called Contextream, a small startup company in Petah Tikva as a senior QA engineer. I’ve been working few years in big companies and few years in small startups. Yes – I can tell the difference, both types has its pros and cons, I cannot tell which one is better. I only know one thing, since I’m still young I can learn and achieve new goals, because I’m well motivated and has lots of knowledge. And I think I can tell what would happen in 10-15 years from now – I’m going to retire 🙂 Hopefully.

I’m a bit anxious about the new place, new people and new technology. But it is going to be alright. Will keep you posted how everything is going.

It’s always there…

I have been thinking whether putting it on my blog or not, but fuck-it, enjoy the spread of my anger!

People just don’t want to write about their lives, internet is a dumpster of bad and good… People prefer the glamor of the beautiful banners, facebook shit, google search engine for fetish images and youtube videos from jackass-idiots. Everything is being copy-pasted, copyrighted and then again copy-pasted, then money is made, and roll-over again. No word about feeling, about the life, about things that really matters. Somewhere in that black-hole of information happiness is lost for good, and then people try to figure out their problems by searching the google for well-known fatal deseases…

It’s so dreadful reading the local Israeli news homepage, it is full of depression, shit and banners that try to sell you gadgets that you can take with you to grave! Even in the supermarkets as you go and buy cucumbers or apples, you know that these veggies are grown on polluted water, sprayed with poison to keep the insects away that are actually fatal to human being. And the shit they sell the people for twice the money called the healthy or organic food, actually just called that way, but made out of the same crap. Then again you pay taxes, for another polluting electricity station, for politicians which make the country to go to war for killing muslims, jews, kids, FUCK… And then you hear how people for some strange reason die from cancer, you name it… Everything, beginning from small tumors to deadly and fatal tumors with metastasis.

The most dreadful thing, is that you work and work for nothing and then again work for money that actually kills your life, feelings, as you come home, the baby is sleeping the wife is tired and doesn’t have a feeling to make love… It died somewhere… The anxiety of loosing it all for fucking banners and gadgets you can buy on the internet. Easy money, easy come and easy go a religion for dummies and for uneducated crowd.

Then you take some book about some new bullshit as some crazy ass writer invents – trying to be interesting, the feeling to burn that book and then crucify the writer for stupidity. NEW STUFF? We cannot actually relax, it’s a fake. You just take another bottle of vodka, then you think you get drunk, and then you just sick your soul out to the drain because of the pain which refuses to die…

New sound and music ideas

I’ve been thinking lately, what and how can I really make a new music. It is so hard, as almost all the ideas on composition and tehcniques are used, sound combinations and tonality is exhausted. Composers did that and that, and you always hear the same patterns all over again and again… I’ve been listening to night shows from etn.fm on trance and progressive channels, trying to find some ideas there. And from listening to the half hour or hour shows I’ve learned that the rules stayed the same – a composer, dj or just a mixer guy, takes patterns, adds drums, bass some easy pad line, creates all kinds of combinations with very simple and basic harmony, without going to heavy places and / or modulations. And it sounds very boring. Not developing, just bum, bum, bum — several pads, and again, bum, bum, bum, maybe some sophistaced bass line and then bum bum bum… What about the music? What about some harmony? And I’m not talking about basic counterpoint rules which are not sustained at all…

As I’m trying to complete my Reiki healing music album and the muse left me two months ago, so I’m out of ideas and motivation to make new music, I’m trying to find these ideas… Then the computer crashed on me with all the files, luckily I had a backup 🙂 Yesterday I had restored all the system and started to play on my synth, but again, I’m rounding the same circles of creation again, nothing new… Like a dry desert with no water or just an illusion of something new. Maybe the answer is a new approach? A new system of harmony? A melody? I donno… The frustration is really high, but I hope this would evaporate soon.